When I was first given this class, I was very enthusiastic- I thought they had such potentials..and I was there to help unleash their potentials...There were moments in class when I asked simple questions and there was this dead silence...or the same people will answer the questions and the rest couldn't be bothered. Then the other day I got angry because two girls talked incessantly from the beginning to the end of the class! Maybe I can write a story entitled "A week of anger" or something of that nature! Any teacher would be stupid not to reprimand such behaviour. But they took it well. I met them outside the corridor and explained what I didn't like about their behaviour and they could accept it.
Sometimes I wonder what these students expect of me. Follow their whims and fancy? Tolerate their forgefulness? Ignore the books they don't hand in? (I never get the full number of books these days anyway) Ignore the corrections they don't do? What kind of teacher will I be? Perhaps, they will be better off with another teacher next year as they never appreciated me anyway. I am just a figure who walks in and out of the classroom and I've probably not touched them in any way...Perhaps I tried too hard? Maybe I should just let go- enter class like a robot and leave like a robot- no feelings attached. No need to 'connect' with my students -then maybe everyone will be happy.